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so this weekend pretty much blew. friday i had to decorate the x-mas tree, but i already knew that it. but it sucked , because mike had told me that he was hanging out with chris that night. chris from phi delt , aww he's so hott. thats the one i met at gumbys... well since mikes my roomie i get to see chris and his other fine ass friends.( god is goooood). so sat sucked ass, i was supposed to go to a party and hang out with fon , but nooo my mom had to ruin it for me , she was like no u can't go out because u have church tomorrow, i'm like o god , all of a sudden we are going back to church. i dunno , i just can't stand demonational churches, it teaches u to be like this or that, i rather have a personal relationship with god. church was alright, the pastor is nice , but i'm not going to have alot of time being in church activities or going to church every sunday because i'm going to be swamped in school , and plus i work alot. so i registered for classes today, it took foreever but i'm glad i got it over with. i start moving my shit in this week. i hope nicole starts moving her stuff OUT this week , seriously i need my room.

well this week is about over, this means its the weekend and about to get fucked up!! after hours and hours of work this weekend get a well deserved break, well at least till monday. tonight i have to decorate the x-mas tree so i can't go anywhere. tomorrow is a different story, my friend is having a party , and man everytime she has a party i get way beyond fucked up, i was so throwed last time i went to one of her parties.so much everclear.. i'm gonna call steven and adam and see if theres anything going on with phi delt, i miss them so i hope they have somethin. man i miss ato i mean the extremely hot guys at ato, and the zetas they are crazy.. i miss sig-ep too they have the best parties!! i'm startin to move in my stuff next week. i'm excited, my mom still thinks that i'm finding a diff roommate, because she had a cow when she found out that i'm rooming with a guy , it aint even like that nor will it ever be, its more like his friends tryin to holla. she is going to be suurrrprised when she finds out .. o well. i don't know about this whole thing with Fon because i'm still trippen about the whole age thing and i know everyone told me that its not a big deal but damn yo i can't look at him the same.its fucking weird. i guess i'm also not that attracted to him either. he's not ugly , i'm just used to some pretty ass ppl, not thuggish ass austin , but more like rob and john,i don't talk to rob anymore because he's the flakeist , shadiest, person i know , a fucking asshole, john is so hott, and i haven't talked to him in a few weeks, he can be an asshole but as a person he's alright. my whole thing is i don't like to be shallow especially if i'm not that cute myself , but there has to be mutual attratction or somewhat and i was at first but i keep thinking he's some old person so i'm like , o god no he's old. no no. i can't wait to go shoppin next week ( for stuff for my room and x-mas stuff)

today is a good day, i have to go to my boring ass training class, but before that i get to have lunch with Fon which will make me smile from ear to ear , so the time will past as i day dream. anywayz yesterday i was going in and out of consciousness, because during break me, michael and sam took a " stroll". i was so out of it, that shit makes me pass out in class. its aight though. i've been so busy i don't have time to call and talk to ppl. during the day everyones at work and i'm not doing jack shit, then when its my turn to go to work, everybody's getting off. so i went to my ' bay area' this week to observe my team trying to make a sell, my " supe" was on the other side and we weren't doing anything!! he does not care at all ! like he cares , but he doesn't , man theres no way anybody could get away with not showin up to work , or being late or calling in, when u have no vacation or sick days cause ure still in the first 90 days, with any other " supe" ! i like my team because they are all so crazy.. i fit right in..lol. theres hotasses too.. o my goodies j/k. i saw latrices boyfriend ( cash ) ( now ex) he works there , hotass john ( ghetto john ), cash's friend who knows all the scandolous drama with latrice and neeci ( 51 st and cameron rd ...hmmm,) majority of the ppl that work there are really young.. so i don't feel all uptight. i can't wait to get paid next week. mike was all high and was like man we are going to put a plasma in every room in the apt.. we are going to have a " bachelor pad" i swear, get it pimped out. i'm so excited to move out and i'm more excited because i'm gonna have money.. yey thats always a good thing.. man i'm still trippin out about this whole Fon thing , i can't believe how old he is.. too bad i started taking interest in him before i found out. but its all good , all my friends were like ure almost 20 its aight, ure not a little girl anymore".

well this week has been long and boring, i'm ready to get paid!! ( which isn't for another couple of weeks). m.c.i wears me out , ( i get off at 10:00 ) so when i get home i'm ready to crash. well my friend michael is working with me ( coincidently), so it makes it so much more fun ( its like 10 of us in the class and 4 of us will be blowed than a mutha bleep.) and i don't smoke!! wth my corrupted ass. well michael will be my new roomie, his rommate nicole is moving out ( she didn't even tell him , he had to hear it from his g/f, wtf). so i referred her to brian and hopefully he'll get her a good deal on an apt. she wants to have an apt by the 21st, but i think she needs to go ahead and take her friends offer for a place off of dean keeton. but she wants to live cloer because she goes to st ed's. i e-mailed her alot of places that were leasing . she wants to find one as soon as possible, though. and the sooner she'll get an apt the sooner i move in! holla. the apt is pretty nice , its kinda small,its the right size. its called blunn creek its off of woodward behind st ed's. its nice and everytime my friend throws a party there , noone complains. my mom had a cow, when she found out i was having a male roommate. she was like thats not the reason if it was brian i wouldn't have a problem with that, u need to find someone who u are absolutely close to, i'm like brian is my best guy friend ,mom, i don't have alot of CLOSE CLOSE friends,i hang out and know alot of ppl, theres a diff. me and mike are real tight he's not my best friend , but i can trust him , and its not i barely even met or hung out with him, just because i don't drop his name by u , u can't say i don't even know him. but she was like no i won't allow it , i'm like well sorry mom but there is nobody else i can trust besides jason and leslie, first of all i prefer not to live with my closest chic friend because that will start problems.girls and drama.. enough said.. jason wanted to be my roommate , but not till next yr sometime.plus les is trying to work it out with robert, and i think she found an efficiency, i didn't find this out till yesterday! plus i don't even think she can afford it, she said she could probably afford 250 , so that wouldn't work even if i wanted it too.the thing is with my mom i know if i dropped some random girls name by her, or i could even make up a name and she wouldn't say anything, to prove it i dropped my friends friends name, she didn't say anything she was like o.k, i have never ever mentioned her.nor do i barely talk to her. i mean the only ppl i really mention are the ppl i constantly talk to on an everyday basis. plus she gets confused on which brian i'm talking about anyway... lol. so i know its becuase he's a guy, and the thing is it has never been like 'that ' with me and him and it will never be like ' that'. even when he came down here from el paso,a yr and a half ago. it wasn't like that, now he has a chic and it stil isn't like that and we've slept in the same bed,for cryin out loud, and there isnt any " sexual weirdness/ tension " going on. and since i'm going to be his roommate , it will defintely not be like ' that '. but i told her that i would ' find ' (quote on quote) another roommate, so she wouldn't kick me out sooner. i've decided since she doesn't drop a dime for me, i have to move out the same time period to pay for tuition, she doesn't have a say-so. my friends were like , she doesn't have the place. i'm like i understand where she's coming from and i appreciate the advice but if i didn't want him to be my roommate i would've said no. i have a job , i'm not going to be broke and out on the streets. and if i didn't trust him i wouldn't have said yes. she doesn't believe that my view on life has changed at all i'm going to mess up but not make the same mistakes, she doesn't give me any credit whatsoever, so i'm just going to show her that i can be independent, the only person i have is myself.the only person i can really depend on is myself.

so i forgot to write in my last entry that brian saw damiens exczema ass friday night at woodmore..lol supposedly he was drunk and he had some serious eyeliner and mascara on..lol that is too funny. donatello even invited him in for a drink.. ( too gay. ) i'm surprised he hasn't fogotten about brian but then again he wants his goodies. but brian is all about his goodies staying in a jar and not letting them out especially for some fag. lol. so on another note travel boy hasn't even e-mailed me back which is so unlike him ..hmm all of a sudden , then he didn't call me back. o well i wasn't the one who wanted to go out.

WELL THIS WEEKEND STARTED OFF GOOD , BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE PRETTY CRAPPY.. FRIDAY I WENT TO HANG OUT WITH KIRSTEN ( GIRL I MET AT KA PARTY ),CALLED STEVEN TO SEE WHAT WAS THE DEAL WITH PHI DELT , THERE WAS NOTHING GOING ON BUT HE INVITED ME TO A PARTY OFF OF RIVERSIDE WITH HIS PLEDGE BROTHERS, THEN ME AND LES CHILLED BRI AND NICOLE CAME TO PICK US UP WENT TO WENDYS WHERE I SAW A SEXY HEAVY GUY WITH A PONYTAIL( LOL. ) POOR BRI HAD TO DRIVE.. :(. ZOLAS ASS WAS THERE ( HOLLA ). I GOT JUST A LITTLE ON THE DRUNK SIDE, THEN LES TOLD ME THAT I BLEW IT WITH SETH AND I'M LIKE WTF , IT WAS KINDA WEIRD BECAUSE THE WHOLE TIME HIS FRIENDS WERE TELLING ME WHAT A SINCERE GUY STEVEN IS, AND I'M LIKE I DON'T KNOW IF I LIKE HIM THAT WAY. HE'S FUN BUT....... O WELL. BUT ALL IN ALL THAT NIGHT WAS PRETTY FUN. ADAM GAVE ME HIS NUMBER SO WE COULD GO TO ANOTHER PARTY SAT IN SOME APTS IN WEST CAMPUS.. IT TOOK US FOREVER TO FIND IT BECAUSE ADAM WOULD NOT PICK UP HIS PHONE BUT BRIAN HAD THE MAGIC TOUCH AND HE PICKED UP , SHITTY THING IS IS THAT THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY NO PARKING ( I THINK WE GOT THERE TO LATE), THERE WAS SO MUCH STUFF GOING ON, ATLANTIC CITY, HOLLYWOOD SOME OTHER FRAT BEHIND PHI PSI. OMIGOD. BUT BEFORE ALL THAT DRAMA HAPPENED ME AND BRIAN WENT TO THIS PARTY IN CROSSING PLACE.. O.K THERE WAS HARDLY ANY ALCOHOL IN THE PUNCH . THE JELLO SHOTS WERE TALL AND THERE WAS HARDLY ANY ALCOHOL IN THEM . BRIAN HAD QUITE A FEW JELLO SHOTS AND 2 CUPS OF PUNCH ( I THINK ) AND HE WASN'T BUZZED, I HAD LIKE 7 FUCKING JELLO SHOTS 2 CUPS OF PUNCH AND A BEER AND I DIDN'T FEEL SHIT. AND THE PATHETIC THING IS ME AND BRIAN PUT LIKE 5 EVERCLEAR CHERRIES IN OUR PUNCH , TO SEE IF IT WOULD DO ANYTHING!

well today has been interesting, i went to golden corral to fill out some questionare, i would never work there, g-h-e-t-t-o. ( i had money and LOTION stolen from there). so i have an interview at m.c.i at 3:30, the receptionist said since i got hired before and i got hired when they were really picky ,i should have no problems. she said she's gonna have me interview with the same person.. MIKE JONES.. who? lol ( tippin on them 44's. lol.) earlier i chilled with my mom we were being so silly, talking about everyone. hell its good not fighting with her every day. i got my pics developed monday, they are fu-u-nnny!!! i was looking through them and theres a pic of me giving some guy my number and i don't remember his name. ( i must've given alot of ppl my digits that night, b/c i don't remember his name and i wasn't even that fucked up!) . my travel agent buddy came back from amsterdam and barcelona so i might chill with him later on or the hottass john ( he has blonde hair and he's hot). ( i met him a month and a 1/2 ago). well i'm gonna call stephen from phi delt and see whats the deal for this weekend, cause i wanna get crunk. with some of my fav ppl, bri and nicole. hopefully leslie will come she needs to get out!!.

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well saturday night turned out to be pretty fun, but friday night was better. so bri came to pick me up with nicole and nate and we went to his dorm, i luv it!! i'm glad to see his roommates don't have glove fetishes and the other isn't a sexual harrasser, o yeah and the other one doesn't hang out with people that hump carpet.lol. so we went to college park, and i saw all these little ass girls there, i was like man aint it ure bed time? we got pretty fucked up, bri was so so fucked up it was hilarious, so then we went to his crib to drop off nate to his car, but it took a whole min , because bri couldn't find the beetle key and he kept trippin the alarm. i love his ass, so we hit up mikey d's and some dudes were trippin about the beetle, and we are like look at ure old ass civic don't hate , we were already throwed and i was about to get out of the car and bust that dudes ass, then the lady who was all ghetto got an attitude with us and i was like" excuse me", ah hell no. it was a fun night, my glasses came in that day, and my mom was trippin out b/c people called the house at like 3 and 5 in the morning. i was thinking o shit the only people i know that would have done that was somebody at phi delt, well i looked at the caller i.d last night and it was stephen from phi delt, then this girl i met , whose boyfriend is a phi psi called me too, i was like omigod i'm gonna call them and tell them not to call anymore, because my mom tripped out but its all good because it was my fault for not telling them i stay with my parentals. i'm so aggrivated b/c the owner from austins pizza is cutting EVERONES hours hell no!! yes i still have a job , u would have to literally try to get ure self fired from there. now.. for the pics

well my weekend has started off great!! last night was absolutely crazy!! me and salwa were being crazy as usual we bought like 20 wings for just the two of us , got this vintage sweater thing at this one vintage store, visited kirsten at towers, and waited for brian and nicoles hotasses. we went to phi delt it was fun, i mean it was kinda a small turnout but it was fun, we drank like apple cidar and vodka and did some shots off ice or some shit, drank bacardi, danced my ass off, took ALOT off pics!! what gets me is that i don't really remember how many people i gave my number to last night, they were like there is no way they could forget my ass, then salwa wanted to check out phi psi ( shipwreck baby!! ) they were sad we were leaving but i was like gotta go, ( omigod this one guy tyler, has a fucking CORVETTE, with RIMS, it is so clean , his RICHASS!)and seth o his tasty ass, i think he asked for my number too, hmm my goodies,OKAAY so anyway we went into phi psi and i had alot of fun, crazy thing is is that it was 3 and alot of ppl were still there and they didn't have anyone at the door, i wished brian could have come with me!, because they wouldn't even care. so i danced with some guys, and i saw my friend from high school and shit, jennifer keen, wild shit, she had a little phi psi boy toy, this one girl was like do u remember me and i honestly don't remember her and i saw amelia whittman , thats crazy, i met some KU phi psi ( kansas), homeboy was all about feelin on my booty, dude come to think of it i think i gave him my number too, because he's not leaving until tomorrow.. wtf, and i don't think i remember his name!! lol. the guys were really nice and they were like not everybody in the chapter is an asshole, ( they have a pretty bad rep). i met some girl named katelyn and she has my number too, i have hers, we are supposed to hang out and shit tonight . after everyone left we , meaning me got even more throwed, we had some parrot bay off of homeboys stash in his room, and some other shit that i don't remember. no i didn't make out with anyone ...damn!.. j/k but i had fun, ready for the switchfoot concert tonight..holla! and atlantic city at sammy and jungle, jungle.. holla

well today has been interesting.. today i went to the mall with my mom and introduced her to american eagle,lucky,fossil and buckle, she loves AMERICAN eagle jeans now! yey for me. yeah she always gave me money to shop, but never went with me to any of the stores. she got a pair of jeans from a&e and stuff from buckle.she rarely goes into gap but she went in there today. after that i went to NUDO and summer gave me a haircut, she layered it and framed it around my face, its gonna be hard to get used to. so i'm guessing i'm movin in with lora and leslie, man 3 girls in the same house.. o hell. i know that i'm gonna be the peacemaker. mum wants me to live on my own ( no she didn't kick me out ) . but lora and lesl said i might as well live with them .. crazy stuff. i'm gonna be there during the day but not at night. ( my wildass). not really even that cause i have to work. anywayz my travel buddy was telling me about his fascination with black girls. lol. he's cool though.

interesting weekend i have had.. my boys kicked osu's ass!! 1st and second quarter i was about to kill someone at work because the game was absolutely ridiculous, but of course my boys came back, then they mentioned my future baby's daddys name i was like DUSTY!!! i screamed ( literally). everyone thought i was hurt or something!! but they were like no its just sophia freaking out about the place kicker and how in love she is with him. but before that i saw john ( my old john ). it was really wierd for me , but for some reason i think he and his chic broke up or they are having some serious problems. he was like sophia u should've left me a message b/c he ( his friend ) was having a party. hmm he would be hangin out with his chic any other time and since they hooked up he never ask me to chill. so sad that i still have feelings for him.

o.k that night was alot of craziness , first the computers crashed at work then after jason picked me up from work , on the way to leslies we got pulled over by the cops ( thank god jase wasn't high anymore) b/c he forgot to yield . the cop was hot and everything but his partner went to my door and opened it and asked for MY i.d !! wtf, so they took FOREVER writing jase's citation and looking up stuff on me ( which they didn't find anything b/c i have the CLEANEST record..) but when he kept flashing his flashlight in the car, the light started focusing on my boobs. i was just wearing a spaghetti strap and o.k my boobs were really sticking out but damn c'mon, his focus wasn't anywhere in the car anymore he tried to play it off and swiveled around a little bit , ( yeah to my belly button), but i'm not stupid, neither is jason b/c he was saying the exact same thing, so anyway there was a party off of davis and leo and i saw all these bowie ppl there, i asked the guys who owned the house what are all these little ass girls doing here and he was like i have no idea i don't know half of these ppl . o.k i knew everett from bowie ( '01) and he was like i know u from somewhere and i'm like i know u but i don't know who i know u from. well he's ATO at texas state now. crazy. then i saw this guy i met from MEPS in san antonio ! wtf ,he was like omigod!! it was weird, well most of the girls came from crockett, and i'm like yall aren't even old enough to smoke cigarettes, then some bowie guys came in, mason egloff, mason glasscock( lol ), then some other guys ( i don't remember their names) it was so weird because all of them were like u look so familiar , i know u. i was like.hmm mason G, comes in and is like whats up, i met him like once through richard orr, he started getting all fucked up and was like sophia dance , i was like hmm noone can handle me, then everett was like sophia teach this dude ( some kid) how to dance. i got pretty fucked up. somehow mason G has my number.. ( he was making me these drinks and getting me pretty out of it.)lol and his friend was like yeah let me get ure number too, so i can hit u up for some parties. i was tipsy at that party but later i just got tore up at homeboys. me and jase left around 4 somethin ( leslie left earlier with her new beau.) i went to homeboys and took shots of this strong ass liquour , i got to leslies like 8 in the morning ( i did not sleep until 8:30 or so ) then i woke up at 4 and had to be at work. i was trying to see john that night, ( i had talked to him earlier in the night and he was telling me that there was some party) but he was saying how the ppl there were not cool . and how he was getting his friend to leave b/c he was drunk and couldn't drive.. omigod i'm so fustrated!! why do i still like him.. :(.

well i got off of work about an hour ago or so, and i'm supposed to be working on my essay ( i'm lazy as hell!). damn i hate when i start remembering the stuff i do a couple of days after i'm throwed. i remembered kissing john,( too too many johns!!) ( hell his sexy-sweetass). but i didn't really remember kissing the KA blonde guy ( i was throwed ) but i remember today that i did, but we didn't make out i think thats why i didn't really remember. i'm so f--king sore its ridiculous! when i came in to work,i was like i'm so so sore, and they were like whats " HIS" name .. i was like fuck y'all!! , it was a well deserved night, i hadn't done ANYTHING since ATO and that was the beginning of the month! well i'm gonna go and say holla to homeboy from STATRAVEL.( this should be an interesting convo).

well this weekend has been pretty good, friday was just a chill day , then last night i worked and i was like hmm i don't have to go home, i was going to see hotass john, but i kinda blew him off, whoops. i was planning on spending the night at leslie and lora's , but plans change when i went to the KA( Kappa alpha) house, i met quite of few ppl, and of course my ass got crazy!i danced with all these KA guys they are pretty sexy.. this one chic kirsten kept coming up to me and was like " i'm so glad i met u , omigod!" she kept huggin me... pretty funny. i was kinda shy at first b/c its new territory , i didn't know any of the guys of KA, the guy at the door introduced me to the " italian stallion!!", he is so sexy i was like , hmmm my goodies... u have to get carded at the door but he didn't card me, he was just like get somebody to get u a beer, its kinda weird, i can have trashcan punch but i have to have a wristband to get beer, so the italian stallion, was like baby u wanna beer? follow me, ( damn he is so sexy i'm so going back!!). well after four bigass cups of punch, a little cup of some shit, and 3 beers later, i was feelin pretty good. well this sweetass guy that i was introduced to ,was taking care of me the whole night , it was crazy b/c he has morals.. we just talked about alot of things that go on at frat parties , we actually held an intellectual conversation...it was kinda weird b/c we were all holding hands and shit.. wtf. my shoe kept breakin and when he walked me to salwas he took his sandals off so i could wear them and held my stuff, it was kinda funny b/c he was trying to pick the glass out of my feet. when leslie didn't pick up her phone i was like hell no!! b/c i was supposed to be staying with her, homeboy o yeah his name is john also!! wtf. wasn't about to leave me , he was like i'll get u cab i don't care i'll pay for it.. his niceass. so thank god salwa was awake 3:30 in the morning!!so he walked me to her crib, she was all taking care of me feeding me and stuff . i love being young!! so anyway homeboy from statravel e-mailed me wanting to hang out..man ever hear of just a professional " relationship". lol. i'm supposed to chill with him before he leaves for amsterdam. ( wednesday). i'm lonely sometimes , but o well, i'm having fun, and john can kiss my ass.

this weekend i didn't do much just worked and hung out with some friends. friday i worked then i went to hang out with salwa, i headed on campus to have bible talk with stephanie and yesenia, then i headed back to the crib and watched soul plane !! that shit is so ghetto i was laughing so hard, man some of that stuff reminded me of a conversation me and some friends had the day before.. dick slappin, tea baggin, twat slappin ( don't know how thats possible but someone told me it is if her *&^% is lose enough ) lol. saturday i went to the bowling alley wtih my parentals b/c my neighbors kid was having a b-day party and invited cody , my dumbass forgot to talk to my other neighbor about track, ( her kids play with my lil brother). so from then i headed to starbucks ( by the castillian) to meet with step and yesenia. i was so wired from the coffee, i had a tall caramel frappuccino, then they gave away a grande one and i jumped out of the seat to to get it.. i worked and thats about it , but i got to talk to brian when i wasn'tdoing shit at work.. i haven't hung out with him since ATO.. yesterday i worked on my essay and when i got to work it was really slow so sigma pi colin helped me out with my paper. there all my ideas but he was helping me format them on paper .. yeah guys i'm actually really smart.. after that i went to garrison hall for bible worship.. its really awful to say but those christian boys are hott!! (well most of them ).i didn't bother to call john b/c..... yeah ..... there is nothing i can do about it so why bother, we are still friends and we talk but it sucks and i start remenescing on old times so i had to take a week away from him!! well exciting news, my friends friend has a chem class with .. the one and only DUSTY MANGUM!!!!!!! i was going to shit in my pants i swear, he is so f---ing hott.. liz was like yeah u wanna go with me to her class and see him.. i'm like no,no,no .. omigod ...
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yeah mmm tasty he has a nice nice body...

so i'm sittin here looking up some stuff for cancun for spring break. man i'm so glad someone reminded me of the packages , they are pretty cheap. i'm all about fat tuesdays , senior frogs and MARGARITAVILLE!!. hell my ass. i'm pretty happy i guess , me and my moms relationship is pretty good , i hate living at home ,but we get along good. my mom and stepdad call me an alcoholic!! me and my mom always talk about getting drunk and wurstfest in braunsfels. my stepdad thought i came in last weekend drunk i told him " i'm sorry i'm not gonna get drunk like around 8 and come home around 9.. thats too early to be drinkin!!"
brian get rid of the drama, hate to see u unhappy!!

its friday night!!! this is how we do it !!! . thank god its friday!!.. i have to be at work ,like in 15 minutes, ,ready for sigma pi colin to mess up the orders again! he's so funny. i really want to get drunk this weekend, preferably tonight b/c i have to work sunday morning, but i still would like to go to the sammie party tomorrow, to see what j-rock and max have to say !! max wants my goodies!! but my goodies will stay in the jar! i saw j-rock tuesday his ass had a big ass rice crispy , i mean like a big brownie pan, i can't be around him without him saying somethin about max.. or saying aba-zabah!! he is the ghettoiest , richest whiteboy i know. anyway i'm ready to get crunk!!! maybe i can chill with preston?? his ass ..

so saturday was interesting, i went to fill out paperwork for austins pizza , then orientation with ricky williams mom, she's really nice.. she thinks my infatuation with dusty mangum is hilarious.. yes he is my husband.. so i listened to the game on and off at a.p then i headed to gumbys and watched the game, what gets me is that we didn't score ! but we didn't get totally wiped out , cause if we did we wouldn't be in the top 10 anymore.. so i stopped by the woo and visited a friend , interesting enough , his dormmate asked me when is the right mood to kiss a girl , i'm like aren't u almost 21, then i saw john at his job , o god.. please kill me , my heart just dropped.. he was all waving at me and i was so trying to act like i didn't see him! so i went over there and we talked , and it was weird , it was like he was really happy to see me. so when i was like well i'm gonna go and tend to my mother and he was like " come here and give me a hug, .. give me some love", it was so weird 'cause he held me soo soo tight and it was like before and for a second i drifted off , i got back into reality and let him go, and walked away wanting to shoot myself in the head.. why i want him back i don't know! he will not leave my mind, what is wrong with me!! brian i miss ure ass, phi delt this weekend?
lance ... enough said.. my bee.

well yesterday was an eventful day, my mom had two different surgeries , it was my brothers b-day and leslie tells me that she flashed brian,brandon and colin on the webcam, hmmm ( explain). quite interesting, o yeah i forgot my social security was stolen right with my i.d , yeah fantastic!! its all good b/c my stepdad gave me my birth certificate this morning to get a new one, it would have helped if i knew b4 hand , but its all good and gravy.well i also talked to j-rock yesterday from SAMMIE( SIGMA ALPHA MU ) , and he keeps calling me max, i was so embarrassed, then he told everyone how drunk i was at the party and gave me this look , and i chased his ass trying to figure out what he knew. he was like i don't know nothing , none of my business.. and no guys i did not F*&^k homeboy max.. we made out after everyone left, you know my drunkass, it didn't mean anything. anyway when i said bye , j was like " bye maaxxx". arggg.. they are having some hawaiin hula thing , somethin to that nature next weekend.. max told me , him and his " brothers" . are having one so i know first hand that its true. hell PHI DELT still wants me to hang out with them, their hotasses!! i think i'm gonna be mean to guys from now on, shit, i'm gonna fuck them over b4 they fuck me over , this time its personal.. i know of some after parties after the game sat, but i KNOW their frat asses are gonna be at the ou and texas game, their richasses, i swear !. like what my ZETA girl says " take yo clothes off and get bucked naked".. lol she loves me .

THIS HAD TO BE THE CRAZIEST WEEKEND I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME!FRIDAY i met up with salwa we chilled at her hotass friends house ( across from gumby's). Then it was off to my parentals to get some stuff for the weekend! brian came over later , hoping to go to sig-ep but they weren't having a party. Then we heard that sigma alpha mu was having a paint party , they didn't have the right " attire" so they headed back. Later i ended up going to that party, i know one of the members b/c he also takes classes at a.c.c and he was like " sophia " i'm like holla ,i never knew he was sigma alpha mu, well i chugged some nattie light .:( horrible. they need to upgrade it to keystone. i got fucked up, after everyone left i chilled with the guys and they took me on a tour. jarod was off the chain then max from sigma drove me back to salwas place, he's was all about this ... our making out ass. saturday me and salwa spent the day washing out the paint in my hair. o yeah i forgot friday john tells me that he has a g/f. whatever! dirt off my shoulders , it feels good not to care. brian , ann , and nicole came over , we all including salwa went to ATO, which is right across the street from her apt. i saw my ZETA girls they were so drunk!! i tried to introduce brian to the girls and everyone else, they are richass girls from the woodlands. they all thought brian was really cute. hell homegirl introduced me to this hotass named joey , i was like man u look like john mayer , he was like really? someone told me that i looked like frado i'm like u don't look anything like frado , ure hotter than frado, he was like thanks, i like u alot too.. his ass. so i met this guy jaq and he was all about this, so was lance , now that boy is off the chain he was all over everyone, but he kept coming back to me and kept kissing me on the cheek. i left ATO with some of the ZETA'S , i couldn't find my main ones , the other girls told me to come with them to SIG-EP, b/c they were having late night. i went to sig-ep but i left soon after b/c it was kinda bunk, my tipsy ass walks to the underground and talked to johns co-worker sean i love that guy , he's off the chain. i went back to ATO and jaq took me downstairs and was like u wanna have sex?!.. i was laughing hysterically. umm no. so i left and headed back to sig-ep while i was walking i ran into 2 grps of ppl ,they told me to go to the beta house b/c thats where everyone was at. so went to the beta house , 3 in the morning and i got so fucking plastered i remember everything b4 i chugged the JUG of wine. all those guys were like " chug , chug , chug", i danced with some ATO guy, i danced with some white boy too, then some black guy recognized me and was like thats the sanford girl, i'm like what the hell, he used to live on the other side of my neighborhood, crazy. i don't remember how i got back to salwas , i don't remember ANYTHING, she told me like 5 in the morning i came back and hit my head on the bathtub, then she told me i puked a couple of times. i woke up like 4 in the afternoon yesterday, her husband told me i didn't budge one time. i met some phi delts at gumbys and they told me they wanted to hang out with me and that i have to stop by the house sometime. one of them used to work at california pizza kitchen and i trained there , when it first opened , he was like omigod i wonder if i worked with u.. his extra hotass! o yeah they said i could bring brian, b/c i knew he would want to go. they were like yeah just come and get us and we'll take care of it. CRAZY weekend, this weekend is gonna be even more nuts b/c TEXAS and OU are gonna have at it!! WOO HOO lets go longhorns! " and its all in my head i think about it over and over again!"